It's been a while since I've posted here, to be honest, I forgot about it. I was reading through my entries and realized how much has changed since then. The most important being that I met Erik Hassle! Yes, I repeat, I met him AND got to see him perform acoustically for me and 5 other people. Truly amazing and he exceeded my expectations by far, it was so surreal and I still think about it and wonder if it all really happened. Also, I've been working on my photography more. I've been trying to use my digital dslr camera more and have been enjoying it. I got that 50mm lens that I had wanted for Christmas as well, which has added to the enjoyment. I've also discovered a love for surfing. I love the act of surfing, the lifestyle, the people, everything. I'm hoping to get an underwater camera bag for my little point and shoot digital camera so that I can take it into the ocean with me and take pictures there as well. A lot has happened and changed. I seem to be less homesick, which seems to be a dominant theme in this blog so far, but I still miss the comforts of home and my parents. But the prospect of living in a beach house next year with my friend, Karli, is definitely making things look and feel better. Anyways, I guess that's it, until next time.

So it goes...

It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas

Aww, I love this time of the year. Winter break is near, I finish finals next Tuesday and then it's a 3 week winter break for me! I'm so excited to:
-Spend time with my lovely family
-Mess with all my lovely cameras (especially my new LC-A+ that I won for free @ the lomography.com giveaway) and organize my photography
-Go on a photo adventure with my friend Susie
-Read some books
-Watch all the wonderful movies on the movie channels (Rent Twilight: Eclipse and Inception)
-Make some fanvids for Lie To Me and various movies
-Practice guitar

Sounds like fun huh? You know you wanna come on over and join me :)

And lastly, I'm currently digging Coldplay's new single "Christmas Lights." Seriously, everything they make is gold. Love them! Also, my love Chris Martin ceases to make me blush.



And so it goes...

Fantasy is Fiction

So I saw him again in film class. I had this whole idea thought out in my head that when we had a 10 min break in class, he would walk up the lecture hall stairs to go outside (like he always does) and I would be sitting at my usual aisle seat and that we would lock eyes and that I would coyly smile up at him and we would have this beautiful moment between us. Well reality is much different from fantasy thought up by my mind. He looked at me but it was only a glance and it was so quick that I thought it would be too awkward to get a smile in and I was also nervous 'cuz I had been thinking about it. It was unfortunately, just like any of the other glances you give someone, insignificant and meaningless. And I'll admit, it's quite creepy if someone has a crush on you and you don't even know them. Because somehow, when you crush on someone, you create this whole story of you guys and you think that you know that person, but reality is you don't, and you're being a creep by thinking about him that much. So I guess this is one of those moments when fantasy doesn't quite live up to what it's suppose to be and reality takes over like it always does.

At least I have Ellie Goulding's new album Bright Lights to make me feel slightly better.



And so it goes...

I want this for Christmas...


And so it goes...

"and when a train goes by it's such a sad sound"

Certain people in my life have begun to really irk me, I feel a falling out coming. And as of now, I'm perfectly fine with it, moving on and I don't want to spend any more of my precious energy worrying about it anymore, I'm done. One thing that I know will always make me feel better is just simply listening to some good tunes and looking at beautiful photography such as these...


Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/lizziestrupat/


Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/defects/


Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/kristiangullner/


Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/62912914@N00/


Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/viviantheindian/


Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/juliettesteen/


Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/mattyfranklin/


I want to desperately get great captures like these talented people.

And so it goes...

Changing with the Seasons

It's slowly becoming more work than reward with some of my friends. The sad thing is, I don't even think they notice or put as much thought into it as I do. I'm glad that I at least have a couple of friends that I can still go to.

And so it goes...

Dreaming of Wonderfulness

My dreams have been good to me lately. The other night I had a dream that I was in a relationship with a younger Tim Roth and the feeling I felt in my dream when I was with him was indescribable. It's one that I lost after I woke up, but I wish I could feel that again. It was complete happiness. Now, I'm not saying that it was because I was with Tim Roth (that didn't hurt it though ;) ) but the fact that I was with someone that I completely trusted and loved. I hope that feeling can be felt in real life and that it isn't just a chemical reaction of happiness that my brain creates that I will only feel in my dreams.

Then last night I had a dream that I had finally met the guy that I've been crushing on from afar at some kind of work party thing, which is how I hope I'll meet him in real life next week. But anyways, he was interested in me like I was in him and he said that I was attractive and he really wanted to get to know me. It was a nice ego boost in my dream. Now that I've had that amazing dream, how will real life ever be able to top it? That's the sad part. Why don't these things happen in real life? And will I ever feel the wonderfulness of my dreams in real life or are they only sacred to my dreams?

And so it goes...

People are letting me down all over the place. For a lack of better words...I will quote the wonderful Erik Hassle...

"Oh my god, this is too intense
It makes no sense,
This isn’t me, all this weakness
It makes me so sick…"


And so it goes...