Fantasy is Fiction

So I saw him again in film class. I had this whole idea thought out in my head that when we had a 10 min break in class, he would walk up the lecture hall stairs to go outside (like he always does) and I would be sitting at my usual aisle seat and that we would lock eyes and that I would coyly smile up at him and we would have this beautiful moment between us. Well reality is much different from fantasy thought up by my mind. He looked at me but it was only a glance and it was so quick that I thought it would be too awkward to get a smile in and I was also nervous 'cuz I had been thinking about it. It was unfortunately, just like any of the other glances you give someone, insignificant and meaningless. And I'll admit, it's quite creepy if someone has a crush on you and you don't even know them. Because somehow, when you crush on someone, you create this whole story of you guys and you think that you know that person, but reality is you don't, and you're being a creep by thinking about him that much. So I guess this is one of those moments when fantasy doesn't quite live up to what it's suppose to be and reality takes over like it always does.

At least I have Ellie Goulding's new album Bright Lights to make me feel slightly better.



And so it goes...